Waking up in the morning is a blessing that not everyone is afforded. Having access to water, food, clothing, and shelter is a privilege that is often overlooked. Being able to slow down and hold space for yourself is an action that many people can't even fathom as possible. We may not have exactly what we want and need in life, but many of us do have enough to survive paired with the will to keep trying, so we can elevate and reach new heights. That fire within us that keeps us going is something fierce and it needs to be nurtured and appreciated because it can have life altering results. Every morning I remind myself of how blessed I am to be alive. My life isn't perfect, not even close, but I'm still here and I'm trying. There was a time, many times, in fact, when I didn't want to keep trying. I've been at the brink of losing my sanity more times than I can count. I spent over 10 years in a constant state of severe depression. Being in that state became my norm and I lost the ability to realize the way that I was living wasn't a way to live at all. I've had people say things like "Just get over it." and "I have it harder than you, so you should be appreciative." I internalized those words and tried to use them as a foundation to build from, when in all actuality, all it did was hinder me from building anything at all. I desperately needed help but I wasn't able to vocalize it and it ate me up inside like an unseen parasite until there was barely any of me left. I've struggled and I still struggle to this day, but it's different. The difference now is that I use my voice to speak up, instead of silently suffering while waiting for the dark cloud to pass. I needed help and I found it. I have an amazing support system, a therapist, a psychiatrist, and I'm now on medication for agoraphobia and a panic disorder that I was diagnosed with in 2015. Living a "normal" life wasn't in the cards for me and while that may be unfortunate, it's the life that I was dealt and I'm going to make the most of it. Throwing myself a pity party is a waste of time because it won't help me move forward. I feel like I'm finally on an upward swing after many months of confusion and almost feeling like a stranger in my own body because being in a constant state of panic became my new norm. I don't look like what I've been through and that's a blessing. If you're reading this and you feel like you don't have a support system, please reach out to me. You don't have to go through life's motions alone and knowing that you have someone in your corner can truly be life changing. Thank you to all the beautiful people in my life that have been so kind, understanding, and patient with me while I adjust to new norms and a new way of being. Shedding the belief that I'm not important or deserving of love and care has been transformative, and much of this transformation has been triggered by my loved ones who want to see me happy and thriving. Thank you a thousand times for seeing, hearing, and loving me for me with no strings attached. This is the beginning of a new era for me, an era filled with love, blessings, and mindfulness. I love you all xx
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Aries Cancer Libra Capricorn
Time and time again, you have proven how capable you are. The battle in front of you isn't one that you can't handle, even though things may feel that way. Feeling something doesn't always make it true and that's the case in this situation. Give yourself time to get grounded, so you can more easily navigate the roads ahead. You CAN do this! Don't count yourself out before you even get started.
Keywords: hope, allegiance, elevation, strength, drama
Taurus Leo Scorpio Aquarius
You're not stuck, in fact, you're exactly where you're meant to be. You have really elevated and transformed into a version of yourself that you once dreamed about, maybe even as a child. There is so much around you that you achieved through hard work and dedication, and no one can ever take that away from you. Try not to let the judgment of others get to you. Some people will try to "drop you down and few pegs" because they see you as a threat but don't let that stop you doing your thing.
Keywords: transformation, blue butterflies, rain, happiness
Gemini Virgo Sagittarius Pisces
A bump in the road does not have to become the end of the road. Setbacks happen all the time and sometimes there's nothing you can do to avoid them. Do your best to keep a clear head and focus on what's right in front of you. Someone from your past may come back into your life but this isn't the time to let nostalgia let you get all choked up. You have enough on your plate and it feels like this person will come with problems that may become yours. Never forget the importance of saying "no."
Keywords: integrity, distance, communication, protection, reconciliation
♡I give myself permission to be great.
♡Home is wherever I am.
♡I value my time. My time is valuable and so am I.
♡People are saying good things about me behind my back.
♡I love my body and all that it does for me. I love my body through all it's stages and phases.
♡I am radiant.
Venus retrograde was anticipated to be a wild ride with lots of unexpected turns and dips, but I must say... I'm shocked. Nothing that I thought would happen, happened and that is amazing. I was so afraid of the potential of past people coming back to reign hell that I didn't even consider the goodness that could come from such a planetary event. No one and I mean, no one came back. I ran into no one even in the places that I expected to. That all put my heart at ease, especially given that Mercury retrograde was doing it's thing, as well. During this time I was able to go within and really focus on what's been lost in terms of love, friendship, and togetherness. I've been craving for companionship for so long but due to my panic disorder and anxiety disorder, I haven't been able to make companionship a reality but instead of looking at this as a negative, I decided to use this time to dive deeper than I ever have before. I worked through so many of my insecurities that have been bothering me for years in the matter of a month or so. My determination knows no bounds once my gears get turning.
So, what did I learn? I learned the importance of deepening my existing relationships and connections with those I adore, rather than being so hyper-focused on making new connections. Yes, I'd love a large group of women to hangout with but that doesn't mean that I should neglect those who are already in my life while I pursue something new. I learned that my past dating experiences do not have to dictate my current experiences. Not everyone that I meet will be a reminder or reflection of the past and that's something to be proud of. This lesson also helped to remind me that I'm not the same person that I was before. I'm a completely new and improved me thanks to all this self-work, therapy, medication, and my community. I no longer have to fear the same outcomes that I once did and even if I do encounter them, then I know that I'm more than prepared for what is to come. I want to give a huge thank you to this retrograde season because I have learned so many valuable lessons that will carry me for the rest of my life<3
What did you learn during Venus retrograde? I'd love to hear all about it below.
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