It's the beginning of the year and here I am, again reflecting. Reflecting on my life and my path. Reflecting on the choices I've made and where they've taken me. I'm proud to say that the I've made it to where I've always wanted to be—emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. The countless years spent investing into myself are sprouting results in ways that I didn't know were possible for me. I feel like I'm finally in a space where every green light is going off in my head as a way to prepare me for what is to come. To prepare me to receive what I've been working towards this entire time.
I can see the changes in the way that I walk but especially in the way that I speak. That blocked throat chakra that I've been dealing with for quite sometime finally feels like it never even existed. What once hindered me is now beginning to empower me. I see strength and willpower where I used to see fear. This is a period of me stepping into my power in exciting and unexpected ways. Everything is beginning to line up for me and make sense. I understand why certain situations had to happen the way they did. I understand why certain opportunities were blocked from me when they were. I understand why I had to wait. My spirit team told me to have patience and I committed to the plot. Was it easy? Honestly, hell no, but was it worth it? Absolutely.
I've seen a shift in the people who I call loved ones ever since I stopped trying to be everyone's everything and shifted the focus onto myself. I've spent almost the last three years unlearning and relearning more than I ever have. So many tough lessons back to back, but would I change my experience if I could? No. I'm genuinely happy with where I'm at in life and with the people I choose to share and open my life to. I see the people around me healing and glowing so beautifully. I see people who are making their own ways even when things get hard. I see their beauty, their smiles, their struggles, and I also have the honor of seeing them overcome even the tallest and steepest of mountains. I also see myself in the people around me and I feel like they see that, too.
As my life opens up, so has my heart. I am so full of love and have so much love to give. My heart space is open and operating, and it feels amazing. I'm back to creating beautiful art, cooking appealing meals, and doing the things that I love to do but hadn't had the energy or will to complete, but things are changing. Depression, anxiety, and panic attacks have always been key elements in my life, so watching myself slowly adapt has been quite the sight to see. I remember a few years ago when I was having panic attacks every night for a month and could barely manage to sleep. Sleep deprivation crept in and not only was I was delirious, I was miserable, but still, I was patient with myself. There was no "fixing" me overnight, so I had no choice but to be patient. That one was a tough pill to swallow but it had to happen for me to get to where I'm at now.
2025 really took me through the ringer. For me, it was a year of closure, erasure, endings, and preparation. I was at a point in life where I could no longer make excuses for myself or others. I started taking people's words and actions at face value in new ways. I no longer dismissed the disrespectful remarks disguised as jokes. I stopped tending to people's every wound and allowed them to figure things out for themselves. I became more hands off to others because I needed to focus on myself. There was no way I could continue to justify the role that I was playing in other people's lives. I naturally embody the caregiver/therapist archetype and that's what I was known for. I was the eternal helper who needed to learn to help and save herself, and I did it. I successfully did it even when I didn't always believe that I could.
My most important lesson of 2025 is that my power is not something that can be stripped from me. My light is not something that can be dimmed no matter how hard someone tries. 2026 is the year of me applying what I have learned last year and adjusting to who I have grown to become. This year is going to be full of unexpected twists and turns, but I'm ready. I'm not going to hit the ground running this year and instead will be flowing into this year with ease and patience because that's what I need—it's also what so much of the collective needs. Protect your energy and your peace. Take your time when possible. If certain things weren't working out before, then try doing things differently. Remember, there's no making it through a dead-end situation or path because all you can really do is turn around and go a different route. Re-routing will be crucial. The need to break things down into small actionable and manageable steps is something I've been feeling intuitively. Listen to your intuition this year and you will be more than fine.
You glow differently when you're happy and this is my time to allow myself to shine, rather than continue to diminish my own light and hide from my true path and purpose♡
