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Healing is hard. That's it. That's the message. I won't even try to sugarcoat the rollercoaster that your healing journey will take you through because ain't shit sweet — in the moment, at least. I'm currently venturing through one of those moments. I'm healing but it doesn't feel good right now, it feels heavy and almost suffocating at times. This is one of those times where telling up from down is difficult and all I can do is wait it out and process my emotions along the way. This leg of my journey feels lonely even though I'm far from alone.
Healing will always have it's ups and it's downs. It won't always be fun, exciting, or pleasurable. Healing won't always look like what social media and the internet tend to portray either. It's not always pretty or glamorous. It's not always photography worthy because who really wants to document those trying times if they don't have to? It's not exactly enjoyable to all and understandably so. Plus, have you seen my ugly crying face?! Well, you don't need to and hopefully you never will.
When I first started writing this, I was DEEP in my feelings and now I feel like I'm beginning to float above water again. I will scream "feel your feelings" until the death of me because that's my motto in life. I truly allowed myself to feel exactly what I was going through and it was hard, but it was so necessary. This meant allowing myself to be down in the dumps while attempting not to analyze every feeling and instead just letting nature take it's course. Not every moment will be a high, there will be midpoints and low points, too, and understanding how to manage those low points is so crucial. Life is not like those animated films we watched as children. Life is not a fairytale and that's ok. Does that mean there's no whimsy or wonder? Of course not. There definitely is, but it's not how many of us imagined it being now that we're farther into adulthood. I say all this to say, enjoy your life. Enjoy it outside of work and your responsibilities. Make time for lighthearted fun because you will drain yourself dry trying to keep up with the speed of the world. Have fun simply because you deserve it. Smile more. Laugh more. Appreciate those little moments of joy as they come along because those moments will give you a hand you through the hard times. Remember, you're living a very human experience during dystopian times and that will impact you and understandably so. Do what you can to protect and honor your health (mental, emotional, physical, and even spiritual). This is not a time to look away but it is still important to prioritize your health and happiness during these times, as well. You are loved. Keep going♡
***I figured out how to type out em-dashes (—) on my phone, so prepared to get tired of me. Reminder: This is not AI slop. This is authentic slop generated by my brain!
I only want what wants me. I only want what I am truly deserving of and this is my declaration of that statement. I spent so many years doing the things that I believed would help me to be loved for who I truly am, but how could I expect that to happen when I wasn't even being myself? I was presenting fragmented pieces of myself in hopes that someone would still see the beauty in all my jagged edges. My hopes turned into disappointment at every turn and looking back, I'm grateful for that. I'm grateful that I was let down. If it wasn't for those experiences and lessons, then I wouldn't be as equipped for love as I am now. No Love Lost (Only Gained) is a testament to my healing journey and growth. Thank you to me.
You want to know a secret? Well, it's not a secret at all. I've been single since high school, which if my calculations are right, was roughly 15 years ago. To many, it's shocking. To me, it's normal. I chose this life because I wanted to spend time getting to know myself in-depthly. Back then, I couldn't even describe who I was or what I wanted, so there was obviously tons of self-work to be done and I accomplished that goal. I, of course, still wanted to experience love and it's wonders, and the majority of that experience centered around my friendships. I learned so much through my experiences with friends and it honestly changed the way that I view love, connection, and romance. The heartbreaks that I experienced shattered the rose colored glasses that I had been wearing up until that point. There was no more lying to myself and treating love like a perfect fairytale. Love isn't anything that I thought it was and that changed my perspective on everything. I really thought that I knew what I wanted but of course, I was wrong. Reframe: thankfully I was wrong.
During my journey, despite who I lost, I always gained something in return whether that was peace, guidance, or alignment. One person's exit set off a domino effect and it led to it happening again and again. The more I realized my worth, the easier I was able to see situations and connections for what they really were. I was finally able to see the truth of the matter and that shined light on other areas of my life that needed tending to. I'm grateful for those endings because they helped me learn my worth each and every time. Those endings led me to beautiful new beginnings. I might've lost important people along the way but what I gained is invaluable and I wouldn't trade it for the world. This journey has not been an easy one but it has been purposeful and consistently eye-opening.
Through my friends, I am learning what love is supposed to feel like. I'm falling in love with life all over again thanks to my friends. This is a very pivotal time in my life where I'm being pushed towards love in all forms. I'm learning to let love in without fear or control. Right now, I'm building a sturdy foundation that can withstand the weight of what is being called into my life. I'm finally realizing how deserving of love I really am and there's no need to let fear freeze me in my tracks. I feel empowered and also excited for what is to come. I'm in my ultimate lover girl era and that begins with me continuing to pour into myself, as well as my loved one's. I no longer accept taking a backseat in my own life and from here on out, I'm in the drivers seat, front and center.
Who I'm doing this all for because little me deserves the world and she's gonna get it:
