I only want what wants me. I only want what I am truly deserving of and this is my declaration of that statement. I spent so many years doing the things that I believed would help me to be loved for who I truly am, but how could I expect that to happen when I wasn't even being myself? I was presenting fragmented pieces of myself in hopes that someone would still see the beauty in all my jagged edges. My hopes turned into disappointment at every turn and looking back, I'm grateful for that. I'm grateful that I was let down. If it wasn't for those experiences and lessons, then I wouldn't be as equipped for love as I am now. No Love Lost (Only Gained) is a testament to my healing journey and growth. Thank you to me.

You want to know a secret? Well, it's not a secret at all. I've been single since high school, which if my calculations are right, was roughly 15 years ago. To many, it's shocking. To me, it's normal. I chose this life because I wanted to spend time getting to know myself in-depthly. Back then, I couldn't even describe who I was or what I wanted, so there was obviously tons of self-work to be done and I accomplished that goal. I, of course, still wanted to experience love and it's wonders, and the majority of that experience centered around my friendships. I learned so much through my experiences with friends and it honestly changed the way that I view love, connection, and romance. The heartbreaks that I experienced shattered the rose colored glasses that I had been wearing up until that point. There was no more lying to myself and treating love like a perfect fairytale. Love isn't anything that I thought it was and that changed my perspective on everything. I really thought that I knew what I wanted but of course, I was wrong. Reframe: thankfully I was wrong.

During my journey, despite who I lost, I always gained something in return whether that was peace, guidance, or alignment. One person's exit set off a domino effect and it led to it happening again and again. The more I realized my worth, the easier I was able to see situations and connections for what they really were. I was finally able to see the truth of the matter and that shined light on other areas of my life that needed tending to. I'm grateful for those endings because they helped me learn my worth each and every time. Those endings led me to beautiful new beginnings. I might've lost important people along the way but what I gained is invaluable and I wouldn't trade it for the world. This journey has not been an easy one but it has been purposeful and consistently eye-opening.

Through my friends, I am learning what love is supposed to feel like. I'm falling in love with life all over again thanks to my friends. This is a very pivotal time in my life where I'm being pushed towards love in all forms. I'm learning to let love in without fear or control. Right now, I'm building a sturdy foundation that can withstand the weight of what is being called into my life. I'm finally realizing how deserving of love I really am and there's no need to let fear freeze me in my tracks. I feel empowered and also excited for what is to come. I'm in my ultimate lover girl era and that begins with me continuing to pour into myself, as well as my loved one's. I no longer accept taking a backseat in my own life and from here on out, I'm in the drivers seat, front and center.

Who I'm doing this all for because little me deserves the world and she's gonna get it: